Not good enough. Not strong enough. Not smart enough. Not thin enough. Not witty enough. Not pretty enough. Not sporty enough. Not social enough. Not friendly enough. Not sexy enough. Not normal enough. Not out there enough. Not politically engaged enough. Not creative enough. Not rich enough. Not worthy enough. Not lovable enough.
If at first you don’t succeed, dust yourself off and try again. Well the good news: I’m back. The bad news: it’s a rocky road. I think this is going to be the most personal post so far. And I have to warn you: it’s not uplifting, but it will be honest.
Do you remember my bikini post from earlier this year? I shared my path to a beach body. It took me about twenty years to figure this one out: we all have a beach body. It’s nice and empowering to draw a conclusion like that but as long as you’re not in a bikini on a beach you’re not practising what you preach. So I felt like my post needed some real life proof. The half naked on a beach kinda proof.
How to have a beach body? Have a body. Go to the beach. Right. I know this to be true, now, but for years it wasn’t that simple for me. Life just wasn’t a beach. Even though I loved the beach, the sea and being sun kissed, I didn’t like my body on the beach. Especially not in a bathing suit or bikini. I felt like I didn’t belong there. The beach is a place for slim, toned and perfect people. At least that was what I told myself.
Me: ‘Hi, my name is Mayra and I’m addicted to my phone’. The rest of the world (well almost): ‘Hi Mayra’. I kind of felt like that when I was about to start my social media and Whatsapp detox week. I thought it would be hard. I thought I would check my phone all the time. I thought I would struggle with not being able to connect. But my social media detox showed me something completely different. Something unexpected and much more important.
Ten years ago this picture changed my life. And no, I am not exaggerating.
Relationships are hard work. We tend to forget that. At least I do. Sometimes I get a bit too comfortable and lazy. Everything is cool, right? We can relax. Well, not so much. Especially when it comes to the relationship we have with ourselves. Minor detail: the most important relationship in our entire life. Read More